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July, of 2005….. a month full of unfortunate events to me. This month:-

• Whenever I play mahjong with my sis and mom, I’ll definately lose
• My beloved almost 1 year old niece peed on me when I was carrying her
• My sister’s boyfriend crashed his new car
• After more than 2 and a half years, I eventually turned into Mr Lonely. "Lonely, I’m Mr lonely… I have nobody… I’m on my own….. ooooooo!"
• My friend’s grandfather departed and joined the lord in his heavenly kingdom
• Another friend’s grandmother departed and joined the lord in his heavenly kingdom

I’m looking forward for a good August. Certain fortunate events that falls on the good o’ August:-

• My birthday =) 26th August
• Merdeka Day 31st August
• UK will send me a love letter consisting of my exam results =)

Well, just 1 more day to the end of July, I wish not to add anything to the list of unfortunate events. Good luck to you all too.

There are always 2 side to every story. What is agreed as right or wrong depends on how one perceive an issue. It is 11:30pm and I’m supposed to be sleeping. I’m darn tired though. Lying on my bed, enjoying the hypnotising spin of my ceiling-fan, I reflect on my life as someone’s partner. I then concluded that I have much weaknesses that require rectification. The other side of the story shows how my problematic character may have actually encouraged the end to arrive. There is no need to write a novel about my darkside. However, I may be almost certain to say that I realised that I don’t deserve a relationship yet. In the issues of give-and-take, I have yet to be "giving" the same amount that I’m "taking". As I’ve agreed previously, I do not really know how to start/manage a relationship well just yet. Hence, until today, it’s not that I’m not ready for a relationship. I would prefer saying that I don’t DESERVE a relationship yet. This is because I messed up certain equations of love and lack the initiative & sincerity to cherish & care. I promise to learn from mistakes and experiences, at my own pace. I do not want to see myself behaving like a 30 year old in my early 20s.

**WARNING!** WORDS USED HERE MAY BE HARSH

Dear readers, in comparison to yourself, I may have the least of experience in terms of starting/managing a guy-girl relationship. However, there are certain aspects which I’m confident to conclude. To avoid catastrophic disaster, certain issues need to be beared in mind, if not, practised naturally.

1) Flirting is cheating’s ugly cousin

When you are in a relationship, try not to flirt around. From my perception, flirting carries an intention. Why do people flirt? Why do people RESPONSE to flirt? Its about giving and taking chances. Chances for what? The answer lies with the one responding to flirts. I guess sometimes people just want to provide themselves with better alternatives. Some would flirt from time to time to see if there are anyone out there who is more suitable/compatible/appropriate to them. So, is flirting a bad thing? Not exactly, just that if your current partner is some what inappropriate, both parties should settle down for a discussion first don’t you think?

2) Honesty, the best policy

It hurts when you have to actually dig to find out the truth. Am I asking you not to lie? No. I’m telling you not to cheat. What is the difference? For example, when your partner asked you a question, "Who were you with up in the hill last night?" You answered "A group of friends, its not like you know them even if I mention their names". Where as, you yourself knows that you were actually with the person that makes your partner extremely uncomfortable when he/she knows about it. So, hiding it is not just lying, its cheating. A cheater needs to lie, but not all liars are cheaters. For instance, I lied by saying "You don’t even need make-ups! You still look as beautiful as u have always been!" When she is all worned out from tiring daily routines. Am I a cheater? No. Lies can be comforting to the your partner, and from what I believe, cheating can never be comforting.

3) Put yourself in my shoes

Ok, here, we’ll have a little roleplaying, such as "Let’s say you are me….." kind of situation. This roleplaying will take place in a scenario where a girl was suspected flirting.

Let’s say "you" are me…..

• How would "you" feel when the first time ever in the whole duration of your relationship, you intruded your partner’s privacy only to see flirting messages?
• How would "you" feel, when your partner denies firmly that those conversations are not even related to flirting?

Here is an interval, in a relationship, I supposed that the principle of GIVE-AND-TAKE plays a major role in sustaining the relationship. "You" choose to come out with an understanding for both parties. The understanding involves telling your partner how those style of conversation makes you so unhappy and uncomfortable. Your partner agrees to try her best to minimise it. I consider this give-and-take. Back to the roleplaying…..

• "You" then saw ONE group picture of your partner and the guy she flirts with taking a picture up in the hilltop. How would "you" feel?
• "You" choose to know more. And eventually found out more group pictures of the guy with your partner in the hilltop. How would "you" feel?
• "You" then, noticed that in every picture, without FAIL, the guy has his hand on your partner’s shoulder. How would "you" feel?
• "You" finally saw a picture of just the both of them, with his hand over your partner’s shoulder. Can "you" still feel anything?

My friends, whether intentionally or unintentionally, always reflect back on your actions. When you are matured enough, there are a lot of things that nobody needs to tell you whether should or can you do or not. You must realise that there are things that are inappropriate to do when you are in a relationship. And for others, there are also inappropriate and unethical things to do upon those who are currently in a relationship. For example, don’t flirt with your friend, who is already in a relationship. When you insist on doing so, perhaps you have an intention of courting her already. Do it, and KARMA will get you back.

Well, as usual, I would take the KTM to KL Sentral and switch to the LRT to my work station. Today, in KL Sentral, I came across a pervert case.Before the interchange to the LRT, nature called me. So, I have to pay a visit to the washroom. On my way, I saw a crowd in front of the ladies washroom entrance, packed with women and KL Sentral staffs. Then I overheard something like "Ada orang India kat dalam!!" and "He was standing right beside me!!" I wanted to stay for a while to see how ugly the pervert was. Then, nature called me again. When I came out of the washroom, the crowd has already dispersed. So, to the girls that still remember me, to the female friends of mine, and to the girls who wants to know me :), do please be careful. Although I fail to see his ugly son of a gun face, I’m guessing that I have plenty of other opportunities that awaits me in my beautiful country. Always arm yourself my dear female friends. A pepper spray or a high frequency beeper won’t cost you more than RM50. Make good use of this RM50 and take their eyes or their ears away from these assholes. My personal recommendation would be of course, the pepper spray.

Another hot issue that girls should take into account is the PF lens camera issues. PF stands for PRECISION FOCUS. I’ve had a rough browse on this issue and personally, I cannot see how "precision focus" can possess "X-ray vision" capabilities which certain articles claim which pictures of victims having their clothes seen through. I’m yet to have a greater study on it.

Parental advisory… Jay Chow die hard, hardcore fans are advised not to read this. I just watched Initial D the other day… Jay Chow’s acting sucks!!!!! I won’t even call it acting. I think he did better in his music videos than in the movie. To me, Edison Chen was an O.K actor. But, Jay Chow suck so much, he made Edison Chen looks as reputable as Chow Yun Fatt. Apart from him, the Suzuki girl is inappropriate as well. I myself has watched the anime Stage 1 - 3 & Stage 4 O.V.A. The heroine is not supposed to be fat/plum! The only thing Ms Suzuki did right was, she was able to project a slutty look. Believe this or not, even before I watch the movie, I’ve heard of bad words of mouth regarding Jay Chow’s acting. I’ve already lowered my expectation by a lot, still I’m dissapointed. Jay Chow never fails to surprise me. However, due to the nature, history and reputation of the Initial D manga/anime, I’m guessing that the response for the show will still be great. Whoever thinks that Jay Chow should deserve an award from this, I’ve got 3 words for you….. "Kiss My @$$!!"

It has been answered….. I’m leaving the office at 3pm today! That’s 10 minutes from now. I’ve been requested to go to Sunway Pyramid to support the set up of the exhibition booth. So long, fare well, I need to say goodbye~~! ( Sound of music sing-along) And on Wednesday, I’ve been requested to support the exhibition as well! Food! Prospects! Clients! Girls! Food! Food! Food!!!!! From there, I hope to get sufficient database with potential prospects. Then, comes the sales! Then comes my commission! Then comes money! Then comes more FOOD!!!!! Damn, I’ve seriously put on some weight…..

I’m still in the office. Somehow, Jesus almighty stopped the time from moving in my building. I’m in a zone where 5pm is always 1 and a half hours away. Well, guess I’m here to blog again. Since I have no idea what the heck am I suppose to blog about, I’ll just share with you the wonders of acronyms!

N.A.T.O

To the rest of the world:  Northern Atlantic Treaty Organisation

To me: No action, talk only

I get lots of NATO friends, don’t even think of asking me why, its not that I enjoy it.

W.H.4

To me & the rest of the Malaysians: Wai Hai Sei ( Die for girls)

I’ve got WH4 friends, very dangerous to live with. For example, a WH4 would start his motorcycle, with his targeted girl behind his old kap chai. When he sees you, he would say something like, "Kelvin! Wanna join us to Pasar Malam??". It tends to make you wonder….. how the hell am I suppose to join them to pasar malam when the bloody old kap chai is full (with its engine already running). Another classic example would be, when you’re listening to music, and the girl says "Hey! the music sucks….." A fully certified W.H.4 platinum member would stand on his WH4 feet, uses his WH4 arms and slam the door shut with all his WH4 might to impress his girl. Well, at that moment, I was listening to William Hung, comments on how sucky his music was….. expected, no arguments over there. Its the door slamming part we really need to focus in this issue. And to all blog readers, a WH4 certified can easily break promises. Do be careful. With all these WH4 Platinum/Gold class members exisiting in my life, I’ve undergo a crash course and trained myself to listen only 50% of what they say.

C.A.I.N.E

To me & the entire universe: Certified Asshole In Nerdy Eyeglasses

I dont even want to waste my time in this session. Let god deal with the things he did. If I may suggest, I would like to propose that he somehow ended being impotent. His bloodline carries BAD genes.

I shall conclude my acronyms tutorial here. Readers with interesting ideas are most welcomed to post their comments. I take this opportunity to thank you in advance. CLASS dismissed…..

Today is my first day working for Informatics on a weekend. Saturday also must work =( Although only for 4 hours, it still suck. Cuz its Saturday!! I take 1 bloody hour to travel to work. Stay in an office with so little people around, and take another bloody hour to travel back. My colleague was so happy when I came. I was happy to see her too… At least there will be someone to chat with to kill the time. Then again, kan-nin-nia!! She was happy because i have finally arrived to replace her position. Her shift was 9am-1pm, mine was 1pm-5pm. Meaningless….. Then again, I can blog in the office. In comparison with my previous job, I really do enjoy working around office shifts. At least I need not work for 12 hours++ a day, stand for at least 8 hours, entitled for only 40 minutes for meal time, look at other happy couples having fun shopping and talk to my best friend, the vacuum cleaner to kill time. Towards the weekends, I get to wear T-shirt to work too! Haha….. professional ethics my ass.

Well, its not that bad either. I guess from today onwards, I might be blogging a lot on each Saturdays. I hope to be active in blogging. At least it occupies partially my mind & time from thinking of other saddening issues.

It’s 1:07am and I have to work tomorrow, what am i doing here…..? I’m not a good blogger but I cant sleep. When I close my sleepy eyes, rest my tired body on my comfortable bed and lie my head on my soft pillow in a dark room while its raining outside, my mind starts running on Pentium 6. Thoughts keep spinning about and I can keep hearing voices whirling in my head. Quotations that I’ve been exposed to such as "Let the happy moments you had be of good memories and take the heart-breaking experiences as lessons", "The sorrowness will soon fade away, but I guess the sourness will remain for at least until some time in the near future". It has been 2 days since I stood firm on my decision. I have a new job to be busy about. It takes 2 hours to travel to and from work. Each working day, I star as Peter Parker in his Spider-Man mode and stick to the KTM & LRT window from inside the train due to the enormous crowd of people inside the train and the other enormous group trying to get insde the train. All I need to do is to stand still and they will move me in and out of the locomotive. When I reach home, I have an old faithful dog that is ever waiting for me to pat and of course, to feed. I have a cute niece that smiles so sweetly that you just cant resist to smile back and my mom who never fails to ask me "How’s work today, son?" With all these, I never quite fail to lose time thinking of the days back then. Then again, what’s done is done. I try to tell myself that its actually Karma; What you give is what you get return. I’m a KARMA believer even before we started. Its not like I’ve anticipated this to happen. Its just that I try to prepare myself for it. Well, it finally came….. and I didn’t quite take it calmly. Its either because of my immaturity, lack of preparation or god knows what….. maybe my low EQ management. So, how it all began is how it all ended. What regretted me was not my decision, but perhaps my style of doing it, which did not actually avoid any feelings to be crushed. Then again, whats done is done. In order to continue my life, I must walk the path forward. Keep looking backwards and I’ll probably hit the lamp post or step on dog poopy.